I must admit, I'm not the most outgoing or popular photographer. At this moment I only have 52 likes on my Facebook page. Though, all 52 people are very meaningful and share in interest in what I do, I'm not to the popularity of other photographers.
I learn methodically, and bettering myself is not usually drastic. I may not have a shoot every day, nor every weekend. Though, when I do go out and shoot, it's for enjoyment. I enjoy working with other people and being creative.
Does not being popular affect my photography? I believe in some cases it may. I may not get the jobs; therefore, my hobby will never be self supporting. I may not get noticed by big time magazines, or other publications.
Yes, I have struggled with my self-image for years. I have struggled with my weight, and what people see of me. I, even still, believe there are people out there that are better than me.
That all being said, I am a decent photographer, if not a good one. One day, if this is something that will last, I will get noticed and find myself in magazines. Even though I may not have shoots scheduled for every day or every weekend, I am confident that people will like my style.
The more I pursue photography, the more technical I want to get. I realize technical have more problems, but I want to shoot with 4, 6, 8, all be it 12 speedlites. I want to put them in lamps, shooting up from floors, in trees, or anywhere I can stick them. I want complex, but amazing.